Live Free, Fly Far

You made me feel special with the things you shared with me,

even though i am not special at all.

You trusted me with your secrets. Secrets that i will forever keep.

You made me feel attractive with the way you let me hold you.

I kissed your lips oh so soft, oh so gently as if we were perfect for each other.

I kissed your neck, and watched you get turned on. I even noticed how 

when you get turned on to a point theres a beautiful vein that pops out.

You made feel loved as you kissed me back, as you kissed my neck as we whispered into each others ears.

I dont know why but i guess i really like you and i am sorry that its come this far.

You make me feel so awkward,

you make me angry

you make me nervous.

you make me so freaking warm inside.

But whats worst is that you make me feel so cold, because i know you dont feel the same way.

Because i know you dont want to feel the same way.

Maybe if we could control our hormones then i wouldnt be feeling like this.

But i guess its what makes us human.

I know im not in love with you.

but i will admit that i am in serious like with you. its too bad you will never read this.

i could only imagine your face if you did.

But yeah,you make me feel so attrctive like i said

and that is why i want to look as attractive as you make me feel.

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Remember when i asked you if you would ever get with me?

you told me yes.

I asked you why, and you told me you loved my personality?

I got sad. I always hear that from one i like or everyone who just says what ever.

everywhere i go that is all i hear. “I love your personality, you have a cute personality. etc”

one gets tired of hearing the same thing over and over again.

But you know, i really like you, so that goes through my head all the time.

maybe i want someone to like me because i look good not because i am good.

I know its kind of weird hearing something like that from me. But its the truth. 

I hope we could keep the promises we made each other. if not its ok, ill eventually find someone.

Just remember this, you are beautiful. Please be happy, atleast for me.